You know you're at a low point when you're drinking Diet Coke at 9:30 at night and watching bad anime because no one would watch Madagascar with you. But hey, it's got bishounen.

EDIT: No. I just can't stomach any more. This show is too retarded for even one as easily entertained and myself. They lost me after the robot guy who looked just like Tres Iqus from Trinity Blood.

I want to learn Xhosa. And I wish my computer recognized those sound files on Wikipedia so I could hear them. >:(

I feel like I've been drawing a lot these past few days. I decided I would do it more, focusing on the human figure. Right now I'm focusing on the male figure since I do women so much. Women are just so much funner to draw with all their curves. Men are so...straight. But I don't draw them enough, so now I am. And I'm going to make myself do it, even if it frustrates me. For the longest time I didn't want to draw because every time I started I would get frustrated for one reason or another. It's a...complicated matter I can't really explain without making a really long journal entry.

I found out about a website called Posemaniacs when I was visiting the forums at deviantART. I'm not real crazy about the image quality, but they have way more poses than my book on nude figures, including poses from above and below. And you can drag the image and move the figure to view it from a different angle. And they have a timed gesture drawing application. Fun!

I did the performance section of the test today. I have no idea if I passed or not. I got a 69 overall score, which I know must be terrible. XD I didn't want the job anyway. You'd have to be a serious multi-tasker to be a dispatcher, if they do what they made us do on the test.

One part of the test was listening to a caller (not a real one) and entering in appropriate information, while at the same time responding to emergency notices and determining which kind of personnel to dispatch (fire, EMS, police, utility). It was kind of funny because the caller was all monotone, but then they spoke words in a such a way that it sounded like they were a teenager with a 40 year old voice.

I also kind of sucked on the typing test. I always thought I was way faster than the score I got, but I guess I'm just not that great at trying to copy information on a screen. I'm faster when I'm typing "from the mind," like I'm doing right now. But I do backspace a lot...but I'm a fast backspacer!!

I may have another job opportunity coming up in a while. My neighbor works for...some company. Seems really weird that I don't even know what this company does, but I do know my neighbor is an engineer. He told me about this shipping/packaging job that this company will be hiring for, and he'd get the word in for me if I apply.

Honestly, it sounds interesting, and it's a good paying job, but I just don't know... It's 10 hour days, but four days a week. He says there's benefits, too--but I don't remember if he said that was for full time only or not... Oh well. I'm just glad he said they'd train me, because I always feel like I have such a lame working background because I always feel like people want experience before hiring, and I almost never have any experience in the area I'm applying for. I don't know how I'm supposed to have experience when people won't let me have any. It's at least a job I can have for a while until I find something I like, and who knows? Maybe I'll like this job, but I don't expect it to be easy.





I love my new Belldandy and Holy Bell mousepad. :3

Ugh. I managed to get Woody Guthrie's "Why Oh Why" stuck in my head to replace that awful "Move it, Move it" song from Madagascar. I must be losing my mind, because I really wanted to see the sequel and not because I think King Julien is made of so much awesome furry awesomeness of awesome adorableness, I swear. I demand a plushie in his perfect likeness. I really wanted to know how the heck the penguins got back to the zoo because...yeah, I've been watching the TV series. STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES AT ME. But the movie never says, so...I'm confused. But oh well, it's just a cartoon.




I've really been missing Zibble lately for some reason.

• 11:10 Passed the written part of civil services exam. Got a 73. Needed 60 to pass. #
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I know everyone's having a hard time in this economy when it comes to jobs, so I know I'm not alone. I've only been home for about a month and a half, and it feels like a year. I've sent in, like, 12 applications to places and haven't heard a word. I let the library know I'm interested in a clerk job when/if one ever comes up, and I just sent in a civil services application. I have to go in for the exam a little less than two weeks from now, and I need to go pick up my hold at the library about civil services exams (all I've got is one on the Postal exams, and they're not even civil service anymore, and I heard they aren't hiring at all).

I mean, it really must suck out there if I can't even get a mundane job like sitting at a cash register all day. At this point I'm almost desperate enough to shovel manure. Or clean rooms at a hotel. Same thing. Hmm, wait. I haven't even checked hotels yet for jobs.

Again, I've only been home 1.5 months, but it feels like forever. I know there are still other options, like temp agencies, but then I bet they're overloaded and can't find anything, either. But I guess I'll never know if I don't try.

I'm just getting more and more depressed about it.